on waking up

i have good days and i have bad days. good days, i'm fine. i hear a chirping in my ear in response to high pitched sounds, my voice sounds crackly to me, and i carry a tiny bit of extra tension of my body. no big deal. bad days i have trouble around complicated and loud sounds and also shaking off anxiety.

two days ago was a very good day and yesterday was a very bad day.

what makes these days different?

i am already an hour into this day, and as i've been alone in a mostly quiet room i'm not completely sure what kind of day this is going to be. i woke up with a very quiet ear, and it's been ringing and thumping a bit.

introduction

over the past few months i've been dealing with increasingly bad hyperacusis in my left ear. hyperacusis is a sensory processing disorder characterized by increased sensitivity to sound. in my case the symptoms have included

-- cottony / burning feeling behind ear (paresthesis)
-- feeling of fullness in ear
-- crackling sensation in ear, especially with high pitched sounds
-- sensitive protective muscle reflexes (pounding, thudding) in ear
-- tinnitus, sometimes loud
-- disorientation due to sensory
-- anxiety and aversion to sound

the reason i'm writing this blog is that the last item - anxiety and aversion to sound - is getting generally worse - and i think that writing some things out will help.

the other reason is that i agreed to track inputs and outputs to see if there is something i am doing that affects my symptoms.

so here goes. wish me luck...